From Hope

May 30, 2007

The difference between where you are and where God wants you to be is the pain you refuse to endure.”
– Craig Groeschel


Suggestions Welcome

May 29, 2007

I have nothing going on in the month of July. I want to leave Charleston. Just for the month. Probably. I want to go somewhere for a new scene. I am open to suggestions. One small caveat. I can’t afford to pay two rents, so suggest places where I could stay with one of your friends for free. Oh, I would help pay utilities.

Sometimes you just need a new city to clear your head.

May 27, 2007

It’s difficult to hold hands with someone with a clinched fist.

Post Church talk with the girls

May 27, 2007

“I don’t think it’s right that I’m this emotional and I don’t even get to be pregnant.”

May 27, 2007

I watched a one-legged seagull stand on a windy beach. I thought, “Wow, that seagull has great balance.”

I really did. The one-legged seagull is not analogous to anything. It was just a bird with one leg on a windy beach.

Part One.

May 25, 2007

Anything outside of Heaven that becomes the object of your affection will eventually become the object of your sorrow.”
– The Reverend Steve N. Donley

And as par for the course, Steve’s comments left me pondering deeper issues. That’s one of his best qualities. You won’t ever walk away from him thinking about lint. Coupled with Steve’s ability to ignite thought is my proclivity for peeling away layers until I think I understand the core of an issue. And here is my take on tonight’s discussion.

We are more concerned with our own worship than God’s.

Our treasures are most often spent on ourselves because that is where our hearts are focused. We are so desperate to be seen as worthy that we forget that our very essence, our soul purpose is to show the world how worthy He is. In fact, we aren’t even all that concerned about actually being worthy. Just fooling people is balm enough to soothe our fragile egos. For a while. Eventually our shiny new toys loose their luster, and we are left scrambling for a new way to feed our appetite for glory. And in the end, all of the measures we take end as nothing but chariots and horses. And we run after these things with everything we have. We think about them, plan for them and when things doesn’t turn out the way we want, we are angry at God and we hate ourselves. We wonder how a God who claims to be love could leave us so unsatisfied.

But it is out of His great love and mercy for us that He refuses to feed our addiction to self. He sees our self-exalting dreams as our death. It is His goodness that withholds.

We weren’t meant to be worshipped. And anything operating outside of God’s design always ends in death and destruction. As objects of our greatest affection, we become our own greatest sorrow.

To be continued…


May 24, 2007

With just one word from Your mouth were the heavens made

With just one breath from Your lips, the foundations were laid

With just one dream in Your thoughts, You have wanted me
With just one pulse of Your heart, You are wooing me

See the way He holds the stars in His hand
See the way He holds my heart

God is a Lover looking for a lover, so He fashioned me
God is a Lover looking for a lover, so He formed my heart

With just one pulse of Your heart

I’m in love!

-Misty Edwards